its quite odd that the weekend after i put "how to save a life" on my video player i got to perform it at TAFE...

lately i don't think i'm doing very well. suddenly got so depressed, and i can assure you its not PMS...come on. if i did i'd have cramps and won't even have time to have pms.

just started feeling like i'm not quite talented to be amongst everyone in my class...and i didnt quite know the words enough to the song, since i only got obsessed with it over that weekend, so i felt so stupid. but then it seem like i was the only one who actually knew the bloody song. *dies*

but on second thought that if i wasnt talented enough, i wouldnt be in the class right? *sighs* we don't just let anyone in...i think/hope.

i have assignments due...that i hardly know how to make it a good assignment to hand in....aong analysing...yes, great....Look, i really love my course. if you know me you would know that this is everything i ever wanted to dp, but why am i feeling like this even though i know this is my dream?

on a good note, im seeing evanescence concert tonight! woot, and andrew is getting me a tour shirt! double-woot! yeah can't wait. and after the concert...apparently we gotta write a review about a live performance, no doubt i will write about it.

andrew...stop getting jealous ok? he's my classmate who plays the piano thats all...haha. silly little blackie. i <3 u....not....hahahaha, just kidding. we are really the strangest couple ever. always trying to confuse each other....it's MIND-BOGGLING...i love that "word".

oh and i voted today...first time ever. so boring...the ballot paper only had 3 people on it...however i did my bit...i didnt put a smiley face on it...i did my civil duty...

lalala...well I survived the first week of TAFE!!! and I can indeed go to the arvo tea @ CGHS so thats good news...cant wait to see everyone again!

job hunting is still going.....

um, cant think so anything to say really...mmmm

Happy Valentines Day soon? lol

oh um, check out the new youtube video. If you cant see it...your browser aint cool enough, hehe, just kidding. that whole window thing is a bribe...no window developed software, no see window live space cool stuff. bill gates is an asshole...dunno how it got to that...but he is.

and Steffi says a big HELLO to everyone. yeah me and her been emailing each other...so yeah. send her an email or two.

I might upload...later on, anf if i have time, some of my old poems, so maybe see what you think and i might be able to use them for my composition later...yes, my course makes us read music >.< help with the major and minor chords...and cycle of fifths? i still dont get that...

    hehe, Journey...just decided to annoy everyone...

    Started proper TAFE this week...seriously I don't know how you uni lot of gonna wake up to a...say 8am lecture if your uni is in the city. As told i nlast entry. i have 3 days of 9am start...and im like: FUCK we had way~ too much student vacation. lol..waking up at normal CGHS school time to go to TAFE seems a struggle....like hit SNOOZE....only twice tho...anymore snooze and i'll be late.

    First day was really cool, we had to set up and got jamming, the teacher made us do "Stand By Me" by John Lennon...did realise he wrote that but anyways, it was so fun. the drums, the bass, guitar, piano and keyboard, microphones everything was going. we still wonder why on earth our music room is right next to the library....people used to complain about the noise i heard -- you would too if you knew how much music...not noise, we made.

     [i hate thunder...the sky is angry now just so you know]

     We did some music theory after that...cycle of fifths...wtf?! oh well, better learn it to pass. Second was ok, wasnt so much fun, didnt do very much. and arvo was worst...the teacher kept telling his life story...*yawn*...lucky i was allow to escape this coming week cause i wanna go to the arvo tea @ CGHS.

     last day for the week @ TAFE...which is today, was interesting. learn stuff about chord major and minor...im still @-@ at that. the teacher is and some of others did "Oh Happy Days" and something else to demostrate the chords and shit. fucken hard.

    i love break times, we all get to hang out and jam a little, and its funny now cause by today (the 3rd day) we know each other pretty ok-ish well, and the group is split in 2...and you're like...um...who to sit with...i hang out with the slightly younger group...for obvious reasons. but we all get along really well. we have this old-ish guy like he said was 34 or something and he's kinda funny...we always seem to laugh at everything he does cause its like...its not like hes funny but...you should get what i mean.

     Ash brought shit loads of bread for us to eat cause he works at bakers delight...mmmmmmmmmmm....chocolate crossiant.

     the tafe tables aint enough to fit us all....lol, we need to squish up a lot of the time...oh and only 3 people in the whole class (20) don't smoke...my throat is getting a little irritated and thats crap cause i need the sing! but i do love hanging out with all of them and jamming randomly cause as i said our room is right beside the library (and inside the same complex) so we sit outside the library at break time -- since we musos are so lazy....people are like why the fuck is everyone playing guitars and singing....lol

     by the way guys, this semester (we have 2 semesters) we have 2 outdoor -- like not in class concert....you guys might be able to attend to those..first one at tafe: a lunchtime concert, and later a end of term concert at UTS's glasshouse (whatever that means)...   

    I went to TAFE info day at Ultimo on tuesday...it was kinda funny, on the way to TAFE i was doubting myself thinking: omg did i choose the right course, am i meant to be here...was if i dont like it... all these crap thoughts going through my head, and then the funny thing is that i soon as i enter the room...thinking i must be late...theres already a room full of people...and then i was like  sorry.... and good that the teacher informed me that i *was not* late, and the sudden that i sat down, i was like: This feels good, I sooooo belong here...

     people kept arriving late...im sure its cityrail's fault (lol) and the teachers had to put us in 2 groups. i got Group 1 was make my timetable as: Monday and Tuesday 9.00am till 5.30pm, with Wednesday 9.00am till 1.00pm. not bad. and the other group gets wednesday arvo and the rest of the week. its kinda good im in group one so i get to work longer on thursdays i suppose.

    by the time that everyone was there, the room was full and ran out of chairs, there were only about 40 people there. I felt so damn special that i got picked out from as the teacher said "extremely high demand" course. I just felt so good.

     we were informed by our teachers that for this year, guitarist and vocalist were the most popular musical "instrutments" amongst us. and that this year, we will be able to use a REAL recoding studio down the road!!! but since im in group1 i'd have to wait till next semester...(theres 2 semesters)

     After the information session, mum (who works in the city) took me to see a chinese doctor who does chinese massages to fix your problems. and he had to fix my period cramp problem...and man, it does hurt a little..>.<, but after that i went to buy myself something to "reward" myself...since i feel so damn special and all....hehe, its a little dog tag and a little guitar together -- both silver (but then when have you seen me wearing gold?!)

     and tafe starts on this monday...T-T...i want more sleep. lol...Job hunting...evil boss still not giving me shifts...oh and lookig forward to Evanescence concert....oh and today i bought a "Oh my god they've killed kenny" South Park guitar pick...just so you know randomly.