let's see how many topics i and jump to...to vetify that girl talk is actually quite confusing since we jump from topics to topics quite quickly. Here it goes:

1 ] Tafe: is always the first topic now...lol. Now I'm only singing half a song, and playing cowbell in another! Oh its a damn important job...my cowbell! anyways its ok since i'm not doing much, im not even sure whether the teacher will bother to let me sing my song with Ash playing the piano cos the concert is on Wednesday, 28th March [come along @ 12.30 - Ultimo Tafe near the canteen/cafe]...that's a bit late isn't it? but oh well, there's another concert at the end of the semester...around May or June maybe? I'm not sure but I'll definately sing in that [well i better be!].

had a open book test...it wasn't as straight forward as i thought, but well, if it was easy then it would totally defeat the purpose of a test wouldnt it? and since my teacher is quite funny, the last question had nothing to do with music at all....it was a sports question. i got it wrong...typical. everyone just guessed tho...except Adam...i think.

2 ] Yesterday I washed my clothes and was hanging them in the balcony and i ran into a yellow-ish spider web (sounds stupid...DON'T LAUGH..wait...even I'm laughing), anyways, after i fixed myself up, there was this big spider there...as big as my palm and so i hung my clothes then i tried to walk back into the lounge room...and it kinda looked at me...well it seemed like it anyways, with those EIGHT big eyes...(lol, imagine human with 8 eyes, isnt that funny? haha..kinda gross actually...where would they fit?!)...now this morning mum sprayed everything she could at it...first it was pest control thingy...then a carpet cleaning spray, then a bug spray [yes, -.-"], but the spider is *still there*. its just worth a mention cause mum was funny.

3 ] I tried out at Inferno Caffe...the people there were fine and i got paid, but i didnt like it. i think i didnt like it because i have lost the passion in the hospitality industry...just not enjoying it anymore. i enjoy cooking for family and friends and setting up tables for them... like in a fun way...but not as a career anymore.

So today i got an interview with CLF at Macquarie Uni~! It's a job that was passed onto me by Andrew...since his friend's mum is a manager there. It's a job helping disable people and just basically make learning easier for people. It's a very casual job, so i would still need a proper job, but still I want this job, sounds like something I wanna do. Cos I've been thinking about learning sign language and do something with it after the music courses. the interview was really done "properly"...water on the big table, 2 people on the other side, asking me questions...>.< but i think i went okay.

4 ] saw a real life cinderella today. this little girl was crying up the stairs at eastwood station as her mum was carrying the pram...dunno what she was crying about (they were speaking in korean) but then the girl was trying to hurry along with her mum then drop her little cute and sparkly pink slipper. hehe. it was so cute.

5 ] done some thnking...love, admiration, and envy have only a fine line between them...first one comes with laugher, second a smile and the last a smirk. kinda weird...dont you think? its kinda hard for oneself to know what im feeling.

6 ] Read Choi's "ice cream" blog, and checked all the different flavour icecream out...http://mdn.mainichi-msn.co.jp/photospecials/graph/060528icecream/1.html probably not the best idea when i *just* ate a Rocky Road icecream cone...i felt so sick after that.

7 ] Oh and habour bridge walk was FUCKING AWESOME!!! i walked with andrew, simona and chris~ since we walked at night, they gave us a free orange hat with a little white lightbulb on it. so the whole bridge looked very pretty indeed! i enjoyed it!

8 ] went to the Amazing human body show too. at Moore Park. slightly gross, but...oh well, its what going on inside on us really. the yucky-est thing was the lung of a city person...since pollution it made it have random black dots everything...no good.

9 ] so...im going to HK soon! yay!...but i need a job still. so yeah.

9 topics not bad huh? lots to read for you.

10 ] wait i forgot i wrote my first song at tafe with alex, ed and dean.e! the teacher made us compose a song...and said should start with a title...we started with "unaware" and wanted to write a song about that the person was unaware of the things around them...but somehow *that person* got trapped in a box, so we wrote about a dude who got stuck in a box and cant get out...and the song it called "Lost Box" instead...lol.

okay i should stop there. 10 topics for you! =) i'm so terrible in signing off...lol

First of all...as i checked out Avril's new single...WTF happened? of all things her website is pink now? *dies*...she dances in her video?! omg... 

got sick this week. being sick sucks. cos it always starts with a sore thorat, and man, i need my voice for my class...kinda depressing when my shower time is so quiet too...no echo of my own voice...

i feel sorry for andrew having to take care of me. i have depression...so i just randomly bawling my eyes out for no reason sometimes and freaked him out. then i got my breathing problems...thank goodness he got he's first aid cerificate. then theres the odd sickness of cold and everything. sometimes i wish i wasnt unwell at all, he shouldnt have to deal with a person like me...sick all the time.

anyways. performing class is a mess at the moment (or thats what i think) i think maybe because the teacher can only supervise one group at a time...and sometimes in some groups we just dont know what we are doing. im a little upset that we are not allowed to sing Evanescence just because the teacher's neighbour plays their CD 24/7 so the teacher doesnt like it...and they were the ones to teach us to be more "open minded to different kinds of music and respect other people's choices of music"...sure sure.

made a lot of friends at tafe...well no one hates each other yet. lol. we all sit together at breaks and lunchtime. certainly there's the "group" thing happening like high school. i sit with Ash (dude) and Chantelle mostly...

i'm getting my hands on the piano (yes i want one. you damn society which makes them so expensive...even though i only want a weighed digital piano/keyboard at least about $1000...totally Gaylord Focker), can play a bit of stuff, know my scales. Played a bit of drums. fun fun. everyone is like that in the class tho, only very rarely that a muso would only know one thing.

I'd like to think TAFE life is better than uni life, and so far it seems so. people say its hard to make friends at uni, and i think so too. i saw a old friend of mine -- Stephaine, she told me that she only went to uni for 2 days and she already hated it....only went 2 days man....in a 4 year course?! haha.

 i cant get out of the  whole depression thing, maybe its time to see a doctor...i'm so not movitated to do shit...not any i have to...or forced to. like i'd rather stay home and do nothing then go out very much. i rather lock myself alone at home. i do not know what the fuck im doing to myself. im not eating well, always really tired. people think im bloody lazy cause of that and i dont like it. im not lazy i...just have no moivitation to do anything. i seem to have even given up of doing anything with my guitar.

performance class r ok, kinda happy that i dont need to sing "how to save a life" anymore. i just couldnt do it. i feel so bloody stupid. doing beautiful disaster instead. *touch wood* its not gonna be a disaster in my performance at the concert.

please tell me if you are interested in coming. its at my tafe (ultimo) i think the teacher said 12.30 to 1.30...ish. its a lunchtime concert. please dont make carboard signs of my name...MARY, seriously. dont...you'd make me laugh on stage.

*sighs* i so confused about my brain at this moment....

i feel so useless in class sometimes. im slowly getting the hang of 7th chords and im getting slightly positive...but i do love my class....just wish i felt a bit more talented.

um, yes. i have a very stange way of thinking now. maybe i watched too many tv shows. all love ends with betrayal....and people in my life seem to do that too...its so hard to try to trust them 100% for me. its hard when i think about it. my family didnt exactly gave me a great impression of how relationships are like, and well my first love...i bawled my eyes out for that petty 2.5 years. and well i dont even know what i feel towards everyone now. *sigh*

oh well. just so you know im still reading "NANA"...that comic just made me not wanna go to bed....not so good. at least im rented them in the comic book store at eastwood...cheaper. $1 per book...rather than buying for $8 at kinokuniya.

*sighs* back to my depressing mode. seriously i think this is turning into a big problem for me. so im NOT emo, and DON'T LAUGH, you fuckwit....you know who you are....

and im finally going to HK....FINALLY...after 7 years. someone go with me....