Now my blog is avaliable on Myspace as well as Windows live space...so its easier for me to catch up with TAFE friends on Myspace...and my high schools through the other....so yay.

I got the offer for Cerificate IV of Music at TAFE. yes yes, it's good. more music for the rest of the year.

From what the teacher said, 52 people audition, and there's only going to be a 16ppl class...and I am one of those 16 ppl...how "exclusive".

Although I got through, a lot of my friends from TAFE didnt get in though. and I feel a bit uneasy by getting in because I feel that all the other people who didnt get in are way more talented...I really don't understand why they didnt get in, especially most of them write and perform their own original materials well i never...I don't wanna feel any better because I dont feel like I'm anymore talented then they are, and how come I got into Cert IV, its still a puzzle to me, but I am glad that I got through along with Chantelle (the drummer), Dean (the guitarist) and Adam (just the crazy person who can act like a retard quite well...haha he's funny). I'm happy that I got the opportunity and continue with another 6 months of music.

I got money...finally (got paid) and bought myself some clothes! pants + one piece dress.

ANyway, Andrew started a new job...and I feel damn lonely at home do NOTHING. doing nothing is hard....um...yes, well i write poems but thats like nothing...oh well...

okay. so. um. a week had passed. this week was a bit odd. i felt unhappy most of the time and than i just kind eat...i just get hungry. yesterday i had roast dinner at andrew's then i had bowl of wedges, then cheesecake, then bowl of chips...and was still hungry...

i started worrying about my career+future. honestly i'd be happy working as a manager in a cd/music shop forever, and i know i'd be happy just doing that. i've tried Jb hifi, sanity and hmv...but i guess my availabilities needs to be increased...but kinda hard when your studying...especially those jobs want you 24/7

i wanna join a band, but how many bands have asian girl as a frontwoman...like none. *sighs* i just wanna sing. that frustrates me sometimes...

i'm doubting a bit about my vocal abilities. i strongly believe that able to sing is totally different than singing good. i won't post names, but people who claim that "can sing" which means they aint tone-deaf, dont actually sing good, if u cant hit the note, then you cant hit the note & if u cant express your feeling in the song, then thats no good either. you don't just "sing". and you can say im stuck up -- and mind you, this is my blog. fuck off if you disagree, but im so sick of those people who thinks "im so good i can sing this song" but in fact they dont know that they cant, are the sadness people on earth. and the people who hog the mic to show off their "good voice" like...kill me. like the original song that harry and jayanna did about a girl who thinks she can sing...the chrous line: "she always sings off key and she never understands the word harmony" hahaha. thats an awesome song (private story/joke at tafe)

in a world where you can just be pretty to a singer. namely paris hilton even though i think she's fugly...i dont have pretty face to begin with its just...meh. great.

i guess im hard to satisfy but complements from friends and people you know...are way bias i think. its like well they're you friends they kinda have to say i'm good. so yeah. do anyone else think like that?

guess i'll just cross my fingers for cert IV.

before you start, if you have time, watch the thing on youtube...you can click on it and somehow make it bigger...if not, search "japanese, matrix" on youtube. they are fucken awesome i tell ya! so yeah...

while most of you still have about 3 years to go (on average...i know some ppl are damn smart and doing double degree), my course finished today. half a year just gone by so quickly.

i auditioned for Cert IV just yesterday, i played on the piano + sing, guitar + sing, and just sang for the third song as my audition pieces, cos u had to have 3. i clapped the rhythm written on the board, and the teacher/judge said i did pretty good.

well actually, i should really talk about my concert eh? andrew, cming and warwick came along. cant believe cming actually came! i really jus told her like 2 days ago, and she came rushing in! i really appreicate that! (yes go to your room and reflect on how you didnt support me, you other slackos! j/k) anyways, i sang the song "breathe no more" by evanescence (like what else? lol) and did back up vocal on Adam and Dean's orginial songs. and the hit the cowbell for master blaster (stevie wonder song that is), it was really good and fun, wasnt really nervous. but i reckon its a whole different story when i watched it back the next wk, since our teacher taped the WHOLE thing. lol. and i think i looked fugly and didnt sing that good...sigh. damn curfew so i couldnt stay long enough afters so i'd be drunk...well i drank without eating food before...i totally forgot >.< i was *that* busy...when to tafe and 9 and finally had food and about 9.30pm besides lunch. i was the "stage manager" for the night...being a manager is really not easy, then i had to worry about my own performance too...so yeah.

and yesterday we had a mini acoustic "concert" to accompany the "conference" which was held in the "sunken garden" at tafe, its just a little garden, and we played some pieces from the concert without the drums and all the electric shit and honestly, most of us had no idea why we were there. its like play 3 songs...someone talked about "event management" that basically only talked about his life and his band....for like 3 mins. and we played more songs and that was it...local high schools came for this shit. lol. what a waste of time. but we did get FREE FOOD...yeah after we had lunch, again, no point, i only took a water...all the singing...cos my audition was pretty much staight after...*sighs* less work for us i guess. oh and we got free chocolate and a "thank you" pressie and our teacher got a bottle of wine...and we kept trying to steal it. and the most funny thing is that me and chantelle kept on chunking 10 or 20cents coins at our fellow performers...it was pretty funny...you kinda had to be there.

aaaaaah~ my holiday begins now....